Confused and Torn
By Ukari Love

Part 2- the concert-
I am a fan girl with a lot of time on my hands so I had decided to make a part two to "the concert" because it just kind of ended. It is just right after Yumi's song when she went back stage and was met with Miyabi. Yumi is quite confused when Miyabi kisses her, but she is even more confused to see Toshio leave looking as though he was upset.

Characters: Miyabi, Yumi, Toshio, Akito, Shuya, Eizo My Characters: Yukari

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Yumi stood there in shock as Miyabi leaned in to her and began to kiss her. She had closed her eyes and made her self believe that what was going on was just her own imagination playing games with her. Once she opened her eyes she managed to look past Miyabi who was still kissing her and see Toshio leave the room.

Suddenly Yumi pulled away. "TOSHIO!" She said out to him, but it was to late he was gone.

Miyabi turned to look at the door, which Toshio had used to leave and then he turned back to Yumi. "Why did you call out to him…?" Miyabi had sounded as though he was confused him self.

Though with all her heart Yumi wished to go after Toshio she stayed still in Miyabi's hands. She looked up in to his eyes, and it had actually happened. Miyabi and her had kissed and it was real. However she had denied it she could have not pictured a more perfect kiss. Was it wrong that she did not go after Toshio? Yumi looked at the door once again.

Looking away from the boy who had his hands on her, Yumi quietly asked, "Why have you been so mean to me ever since I got here… have I done something wrong… I thought you actually wanted me dead…" Yumi's eyes drifted downward away from the boy's eyes and also away from the door.

As she was looking down she could feel a finger on her chin leading it upwards. "I have my reasons… I shouldn't have been so harsh…" This boy seemed like a completely different person. Not the boy who pushed Yumi up against lockers and made fun of as much as he could. She couldn't understand where the change had come from, was it the clothes that she was wearing, or maybe it was that song. "It's just you reminded my of some one… but I really must go…"

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Toshio sat out side of the concert very silent and to him self. For a moment he looked up wards and he saw Miyabi walk past with out even noticing, Toshio's eyes narrowed as Miyabi walked past him. Then Toshio was by him self again below the darkness of the building.

Ten or fifteen minutes later Yumi had come running out of the doors of the building. Her head flew one way and then just as quickly the other way. Suddenly she saw Toshio sitting on the ground. He hadn't noticed her looking at him but he could feel a pair of eyes coming closer to him.

"Toshio… about… what happened…" Yumi whispered down to him.

Toshio did not look up; instead he continued to look forward. "You don't have to explain your self to me Yumi…So what you kissed Miyabi… big deal…"

Yumi leaned down in front of Toshio forcing the boy to stare her in the eyes. "It's not like it looked… didn't know that he was going to kiss me… I was just as surprised as you were…" Yumi noticed that Toshio's eyes were harsh. "Toshio… I'm telling you the truth…"

Then as the girl was trying to get one final sentence out Toshio stood up and looked down at her. She froze, his eyes piercing in to the depths of her very soul. For a moment the sounds of the street vanished and there was nothing. Toshio continued to stare at the girl who was a whole head and shoulder shorter then he.

"This is just a game to you… isn't it…"

"What's just a game…? Toshio…?" Once again the girl was cut of by Toshio's piercing stare.

Slowly the boy lifted his finger and put it to the girl's mouth. "…Ok… sorry… is just another of Miyabi's little games… You're just a toy…" Toshio sighed in defeat. "…Just another toy…" With that Toshio began to walk away, Yumi unable to say anything, for what was there to say?

The sounds of Yukari and her band began to ring in Yumi's ear once again. After standing there for a moment she decided to go back in to the club to watch the last few songs that they were going to play.

When Yumi started to walk towards the front in the corner of her eyes she noticed people pointing at her. Not paying to much attention to the people of which would not stop pointing and saying things about her. She got back to the front and could see Eizo, for a moment or two he was oblivious to Yumi who was standing right next to him. Then out of chance Eizo was dancing around and he saw Yumi.

He immediately stopped dancing and started to scream, "OH MY GOD YOU WERE GREAT!" He said keeping one eye on the band and another on Yumi.

"Thanks… you think…" Yumi said in a shy voice.

Eizo sensing that Yumi wasn't her normal self ran over and hugged the girl tightly (almost to tight). "I WOULD SO DO YOU BUT YOU'RE LIKE MY BEST FRIEND!" then with must notice he turned back toward band and began to cheer once again. "I WANT TO HAVE YOUR BABIES!" Eizo yelled out in unison with two or girl of the girl. Yumi assumed that it was for Ryu, but with Eizo it was really hard to tell.

Yumi smiled silently as she began to drift away in to her own world.

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Miyabi was lying sprawled on the couch as Toshio silently enter the house. With out much effort Miyabi pushed him self-up to see whom it was. "Why are you so late… where the hell were you…"

Quickly Toshio replied, "No where."

Miyabi jumper for the couch and stood in front of Toshio, "Where did you go after the concert."

Toshio pushed his way past Miyabi and replied with little emotion in his voice, "No where!" He was almost to the door that exited the room that he was in.

"I know you saw me kiss her…" Toshio stopped dead in his tracks. "I also know that you like her… you may deny it… but I know…" Toshio slowly began to turn around and look at Miyabi. "Is that why you aren't saying more then two words to me…? You can't ignore me for ever… cause I really like this girl…"

The anger in Toshio suddenly burst, "THAT'S THE THING YOU TREATED THIS 'GIRL' LIKE SHIT AND EVEN MADE HER CRY. Now all the sudden I'm suppose to believe that you like her. You'll just play with her until your selfishness if filled and then you'll leave her… I've seen this before Miyabi… you see a pretty girl… you get a pretty girl… You break the pretty girls heart. YOU CAN'T LOVE, YOU'RE UNCAPABLE OF IT!"

The tone in the room turned to a bitter kind of silence, Miyabi looked as though he had just say some one near to him die. Toshio stood there breathing heavily almost not regretting what he had just screamed at Miyabi. Slowly the other two members of the band came in to the room to see what all the yelling was about.

"What is that suppose to be… are you talking about my mother…"

Toshio glared that he had even brought that up. "You know it wasn't about that... your mother was a great person… but for once in your life your problems don't revolve around your mothers death!" a gasp came from behind Toshio as he said that. "If your mother was alive do you think she would like to see you treat people so badly?" Toshio stood his ground and continued on. "You've become a spoiled brat and when ever any thing goes wrong you bring up your mother…"

Before any more was said Miyabi ran forward and punched Toshio in the face. After he had punched him he stood there with his fist still in the air and his face pointed down ward. Toshio seemed unaffected by the punch that had just hit him. He then took his hands and pushed Miyabi up against the near by wall. Toshio didn't say any thing at first but there was a small amount of fear in Miyabi's eyes.

"You don't get it do you… I know it's hard losing the one person who truly loved you… but you won't get better this way. Not like this! She's not coming back Miyabi… as sad as that might be…" Toshio softened his voice, "…she's not coming back… And yes I don't know exactly what it is that you are going through… but you never talk about it… you ball it all up inside of you… that is why I said you were unable to love because you don't know how to share these feelings… what happens if Yumi does something to make you angry… what would you do… beat her! Will that make every thing right?"

In the background Akito leaned in to Shuya, "Yumi…?" he whispered silently as Toshio and Miyabi continued to stare at each other.

"There are just some things we shouldn't stick our noses in…"

~~~

Yumi was sitting in a park that was near the school. The sun had been down for five hours now it was really late. There was a confused look on her face. "Cheer up kiddo… what's the matter…you've been like this all night…" Yumi looked up and noticed that Yukari had found her like she always would. Yukari sat down beside Yumi getting ready for a speech of some sort.

"Well… you going to tell me or do I have to force it out of ya?" Yukari snickered as she spoke.

There were so many thoughts going through Yumi's head at that moment it seemed when she spoke she spat it all out. "Miyabi kissed me after I sang, and I really didn't think I liked him but I didn't stop him from kissing me, Toshio walked in and saw me kissing Miyabi, so I go to see if Toshio is alright and it seems that he likes me, He said that I was a toy or a game or… something, and for the first time in my life I find my self between a rock and a bigger rock." Yumi seemed to say that all with one breath.

Yukari looked very confused. "So you kissed Miyabi and made Toshio jealous, and also you found out that Miyabi likes you… WHAT? I'M SO CONFUSED! Which one do you like…?"

Yumi screamed a little, "I DON'T KNOW!" she let out another quick little scream. She then put her face to her hands and began to mutter. "Toshio is very sweet and would look after me and makes me feel safe. Miyabi appeals to this completely other side of me, the one that likes to party and sing with my friends… but he was always mean to me… and Toshio was always nice to me… but Miyabi is very poetic and can be sweet… and Toshio is really dark and mysterious… AND THIS WHOLE THING IS MAKING MY HEAD HURT!" Yumi let out once again.

"Maybe we should go home and talk about it there… it is rather late…" Yukari tried to convince the girl to move.

Yumi moved her hands away from her face, "Yeah I'll be right behind you… Jus want to sit here for a few more minutes…"

"Then I'll sit with you…"

Yumi then turned her head towards Yukari, "I would like to be alone just for a bit…"

"But..."

"Are you sure..."

"Yes I'm sure… no please I promise I will be right behind you…" Yumi showed the girl a sweet little smile. Yukari hesitated at first then she got to her feet, still hesitating. Then finally she started to walk off. She would look over her shoulder to look at Yumi and saw her just sitting there smiling back at her.

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Miyabi had stayed away from Toshio for the rest of the night and said nothing to any of the others. He was lying down on the couch when he ears leaned toward the phone that was ringing. In the room opposite where Miyabi was Toshio picked up the phone.

"Oh, Hi Yukari…" There was a pause in Toshio's voice, "…Yumi… no she's not here…" Once Miyabi heard the name of the young girl he grabbed for the control of the TV and turned it on.

There was a news reporter on screen talking about something. At first Miyabi couldn't hear it so he turned it up. "There was a young girls body found in the bushes of a local high school this morning…" The report said he continued to talk.

Toshio paid no attention to the TV no matter how much he wanted to. "Why do you ask Yukari…?" Toshio stood there listening Yukari and let out a gasp. "Are you telling me that when you last saw her see was at the park near the school?" Miyabi then rushed to sit up and looked at Toshio. "Did you call Eizo… yeah she wasn't there either…" Toshio worried looked up to Miyabi and both of the boys heard the reporter's voice once again.

"The police are saying this girl was around the age of sixteen… they aren't releasing any names…" The reporter started to talk about something different. Miyabi and Toshio stare silently at each other…

*Part three will come soon.

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